Life transitioning

I have opened my eyes, my heart, my mind to another, in a deeply intimate way. I have chosen marriage, stability, commitment. I have taken a very optimistic, life affirming leap. Following your gut, feeling certain and following your truth has been a process in my life. Who doesn't tussle with that. Getting close to myself has opened me up to a much more relaxed and confident life. A certain balance between relinquishing one's power and staying stalwart and steady, is a lovely challenge. I am on that balance beam enjoying the view.

Love, mommy

My role as mother will never disappear but my job as mother is officially over. I started thirty years ago giving birth to vanessa,my first of three daughters. This weekend will be the college graduation of my third daughter maddy,from Ithaca college. It only took thirty years to complete the job. That's one hell of a long project. olivia and vanessa have been watching the old home videos from their early life. Their comments are.. You were so patient... That looks so chaotic... You were a magical mom... And it all is making sense now! It's fascinating to hear their take on things. These are women whose opinions I respect, but back then they couldn't comment because they were still forming. We were all in it together and now we are out of that phase and in another together.  I like the new phase. . My three daughters and I have worked out a new way of being together.... Apart. Vanessa, Olivia, Maddy ... I loved you so hard and raised you so well. It's your turn now! Love mommy

Our little lives

My favorite woman that I don't know woke me up this morning. She said what we do individually is not so important. What is important is what we do collectively. She opened up City of Joy in the Congo as a safe haven for girls. I wept. That's how a life matters. Way to go Eve, so aptly named, for continuing to speak, guide mentor all of us.

Psst I have a secret

It was serious business all day Friday into the wee hours of Saturday morning. That was the day that Oliver was born. He is my grandson which means that I gave birth to his mother. I am already in love with Oliver but he doesn't know it yet. I can't wait to tell him again. I tried the first day but he slept through it. Then I tried to tell him the second day but he was interested in eating not about love. The third day I couldn't see him, but if I had I would have tried again. Tomorrow is the fourth day, maybe that will be our lucky day. I will tell him and he will hear me. If not, no worries because guess what? I will tell him everyday for the rest of my life. Oliver I love you.

High above the clouds

Social security

What does it mean? Are we ever socially secure or are we doomed for eternal social insecurity? There are 50 people here waiting to feel more secure. It ain't happening! The guard sign says dont ask him any questions... An old man starts yelling... What are you getting paid for if you don't talk? Someone kindly steps up and says let me help you. The technology was too much for him. Numbers are getting called and people's problems are getting resolved. I guess this is another form of security.

Marathon madness

Standing there cheering at the foot of the Palaski Bridge, I embraced the full fledge fan in me. Watching, appreciating and trying to absorb the full impact of each runners race. Whether on foot or in carriage, I was witnessing a monumental day in all of these peoples lives. A day that they would talk about, think about, ruminate about to various people throughout their life... the day they participated in the NYC marathon. This is a goal that keeps people focus, gives their life meaning.  I watched for hours, starring, trying to peak into their souls and spirits, to get closer, to understand the motivation and what kept them going all of the preceding months. If I can nderstand , then I can motivate someone else to achieve and get out of their own way. Some runners, at mile 13 were laughing, hi-fiving, some looked pained, some focused. All were joined together, all 47,000 strong in their determination.